So I did finally decide to text my children's piece of s*** Dad back! I texted him and requested that if I was to have my voice call him to please refrain from telling them that he was going to visit until he won discuss it with me and to actually have the ticket in his hand to come see my kids because I didn't tired of him telling them stuff and then him not following through! It irritates the hell out of me and you never text me back or called or anything so luckily I didn't tell my kids are there be going to be calling their father because he's a loser a****** I'm sick of dealing with him I want her to sign over custody is Lee was the f*** alone I don't want to f****** piece of s*** money you know the people a child support told me that $40 you sent me was a be considered a gift and not child support so set that up you piece of s***. I really wish that he wasn't my childrens father I really feel bad for my kids it's not fair to them that he's such a jerk you have nothing to do with them I honestly I mean yes I do care about the money of course because it helps I'm supporting my kids by myself my mom is my kids dad basically he does nothing for them but the thing that pisses me off the most is the fact that he is and see them he doesn't call them he doesn't see you then he has nothing to do with them unless it fits him unless he feels like being a daddy this month but usually it takes him 3 months to do anything at least if not longer if not 3 years so needless to say I'm fed up with this piece of s*** ass. I can't say that i wish I never met him because I wouldn't have my boys but if I would have listen to everybody I wouldn't be in the situation I'm in all my friends n family warned me he was a leach but I'm dumb and saw through his deception bc I was fat and lonely - he won't even give me his address my son my youngest son asked me where his dad lives I said I don't know he asked me what was his dad's number that I don't know he asjed if his dad knew where we live and what our number is i said yes bc im not going to lie to him for his POS fathers sake - that's really sad that your own kids can't know where you live because ur afraid the child Support going to come after u Bitch they're going to find you anyway cuz I know your social security number your dumb all ur doing is hurting ur kids u pathetic piece of shit I hope u rot in hell!
One Fucked Up Individual Is Back
Thursday, July 16, 2015
Sorry
So I'm sorry to all who actually read my blog I haven't been posting because of the fact that the computer that I post on isn't working and I don't really like to do it from my phone however I am using the speak feature so I don't actually have to type anything so that makes it a little bit easier anyway that's all for now I will be posting soon I think of something interesting to say so I guess I will be posting later
Smoochies!!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
PLEASE HELP!!!!! (Use my Poll to your right!!! -------->)
Saturday, June 20, 2015
losing my faith? did i even have any?
and then I had to look up inherently:
and this is not how I feel at all!!! I don't feel like I deserve anything from perfect strangers but I am envious and jealous of other fundraisers I see that (personally) I don't feel are as deserving as mine. I'm trying to move my kids out of a bad city and raise them somewhere give them roots instead of moving them all around everywhere because I'm on disability and poor I do plan to get a job when they go back to school but its going to be hard because I am on methadone and I won't be able to pass a drug test without being honest and they won't like the fact that I am a recovering drug addict it's hard to find employment when you're in recovery and require special hours because you have absolutely no one to help you with your children for free. My sister was lucky she had me and was able to get out of the welfare hole bc I was always there for her to babysit so that she could have a good job - I HAVE NO ONE!!!! My mom can't look after them bc of her age and medical issues she is the only one that is there for me and she can only be there for me so much I need friends but no one wants to be my friend IDK y I'm for the most part a good person I'm very caring a good listener and pretty much will give my friends the shirt off my back but with that i get taken advantage of a lot - I had this one girl that i thought was my friend but she was just using me and come to figure out she and her bf stole my kids tablets but i can't prove it which totally sucks - But back to the fundraiser there is a recovering addict on the youcaring site raising money to get a peddlers license and he has raised a lot of money I can't even get friends and family to donate $1 it sux I don't feel entitled to have them donate I don't feel like me and my kids deserve anything from anyone it would just be nice for someone to give a shit about me - I feel so alone lately like no one gives two fucks about me - my mom spends a lot of money on me and my kids but I don't feel like she cares about me at all which i can understand bc I have fucked her over a lot with my drug use - I feel like everyone has turned their back on me - and I need to learn how to love myself bc no one else does and if I don't love myself who will? Yeah I know I've got my kids but those who have kids no how ornery they can be and my kids are very spoiled - I'm starting to ask myself why i even bother - Just throw in the towel and say fuck it but I know things will get better THEY HAVE TO LOL!! That's all 4 now -
Smoochies!!
Monday, June 15, 2015
Haha I suck
So day 1 (or as I like to call it D Day) did not go well at all! I started off with a sour cream donut from Dunkin Donuts because I figured since I didn't have one yesterday that would make up for it and I wouldn't get anything sweet all day well I've been using sugar all day with half and half in my coffee as well as going to the grocery store and picking up donuts and ice cream and ice cream topper and I think that's it I haven't eaten any of the stuff that I bought at the store but I probably will so tomorrow hopefully I will do good and stay with no sweets its just so hard to give up sweets especially when that's basically my diet - my niece is on a what's called a clean eating diet and I found all these recipes for some yummy desserts so maybe if I make those then I can have my sweets and eat healthy at the same time
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Giving up Dunkin Donuts :(
So I've decided I'm fat! ! I weigh 225 lbs I'm extremely overweight!!! My main food that I eat is sour cream doughnuts from dunkin donuts so I'm giving them up and not using as much sugar in my coffee if anyone has any ideas for a good natural sweetener (I know sugar is natural but it's unhealthy the way I use it) please comment I will try to b diligent about posting my journey I'm also going to try to exercise but no guarantee on that bc of my back and my laziness n the fact that I smoke a pack a day but hopefully with the healthy changes it will help me quit smoking too!!
$moochies!!!!
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Fuck Men (expcet for my boys LMFAO) jk love men just not the ones in my life!!
Smoochies!!!!